My last few blog posts have talked about some of the more difficult aspects of going through weight loss surgery, especially if you're an emotional eater like I am.
This week, however, I wanted to share some good news. My favorite time of year - the fall and the winter holidays - is fast approaching. I've always loved the cheap but pretty Halloween shirts that stores like Wal-Mart and K-Mart offer during the holiday season. For the last several years, however, I've been to heavy to fit into one of them.
On Tuesday, I ran some errands that included a trip to Wal-Mart. As I was finishing up my shopping, a rack of Halloween t-shirts caught my eye, and I wandered over to admire them.
Then, as I looked at them, I noticed something astonishing. Amazing. Most of the shirts were available in size XXL. Last year at this time, I was just barely squeezing into a 4XL. Now XXL tops fit me easily. I could probably even get away with an XL, but I like my clothes to feel a little loose. In the end, I chose two cat-themed Halloween shirts, paid $12 for them, and left happy.
I really needed an experience like that this week! Sometimes I get so frustrated with my dietary restrictions and with the physical symptoms that crop up when I don't follow the restrictions that I wonder whether the surgery was really a wise decision.
Then I'll find that I'm able to fit into a cute shirt or pair of pants that I couldn't before, or I'll be able to go to a restaurant and slide into a booth instead of having to wait for a table to open up, and I'll realize all over again that the surgery really was my best option.
Weight loss surgery isn't an easy way to drop a few pounds or a "cheat" as some people say. Rather, it is a single, albeit sophisticated, tool in your weight loss arsenal. And I'll tell you the truth, if you want to try to sabotage the surgery, it isn't that hard to do. If I chose to, I'm sure I could soon find ways to gulp down an entire sheet of fudge again. But I choose not to.
I choose to follow the diet recommendations made by my bariatric surgeon, and I choose to face head-on the emotional issues that led to my anorexia in high school and my weight gain as an adult. I choose to face down this threat to my comfort - actually, even to my life - and win.
And to think, I got all that motivation from a little ol' $6 Halloween t-shirt!